raloria - Screencapping Goddess (raloria) wrote,
raloria - Screencapping Goddess

It never gets any easier

Today is my grandpa's viewing/visitation.

Honestly, I'm not looking forward to it. This the 3rd death in our family in the last 4 years and I'm sick of seeing dead bodies in caskets. I couldn't stand to see my dad like that or even my uncle and I know I don't want to see my grandpa that way either. They do what they can to make the body look nice, at peace and all that, but it just looks wrong to me. The person isn't alive anymore, they're just an empty shell.

I don't get a choice, of course. Since I'm the transportation for my mom & my aunt, I'll have to go anyway. I know my mom's going to make me take a picture, too, like she did with my dad & uncle. It's just plain morbid in my opinion. I still can't look at the pictures of my dad's body in the casket....or even my uncle.

We'll be going through more stuff at his house afterwards. It's a long, tedious process and we're barely scratching the surface. The funeral itself is on Saturday and I gotta admit, I'm starting to get nervous about that too. I've never received a flag before. I know it's a big honor and all that, but I have no idea how it's going to effect me.

Now I'm just rambling and I know I need to get some sleep. *trundles off to make JC post & go to bed*

Tags: ramblings, real life
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