Watched a youtube video where this gal fangirled and gushed over seeing her favorite singer in an upcoming concert for the first time and it made me think of meeting Jensen for the first time. There's nothing that can replace that first con, of seeing the actors, that first photo-op, talking to them, realizing that they are indeed right in front of you as they sign their autograph, of meeting other fans and realizing you're not some sort of freak. A lot of that first-time feeling fades over time and I find myself grasping to get it back. But that's impossible. You can never re-live a first time. It is special, treasured, unique.
I think that's why I adore and envy the newbies I meet each year at VanCon. Their excitement is a delight and takes me back to when I was like that, soaking in everything that a con provides. They're so nervous in the photo-op and autograph lines and I try to settle them down, but it's really impossible. I know, I've been there. In fact, sometimes I still get nervous waiting in line. What will I say? What will I do? Sometimes I have a plan and sometimes I don't. And sometimes I have a plan until I get up to them and then it all flies out the window! But I welcome the nervousness, because it's that one little bit of newbie-ness that I retain. It gives me at least a tiny taste of that first photo-op with Jensen all over again. ♥